I feel like i am sitting alone in a big dark room, n dere's a huge dome over me on which many things are going by and i am tied to my seat...
This is how my days are going and the sole reason for my living is music...
I know this is a phase in evryone's life but i don't care about anybody and nor does anyone about me...im feeling so low dat i dun wanna do nething but close my eyes n dream..
n so i wrote dis in school wen teacher in d front was speakin sumting about carbon bond lengths n some fuckin "facts"
My morose death
Breaking glasses, tearing pages
drawing sketches,throwing pencils,
hurting my fists, wiping tears
That's all i do the whole day
my head's all bang n my fingers going ram
closing my eyes, i pull my hair
it happens to me all the time.
I am CONFUSED!!
Am i in dark or light??
this way or that way
i'm surrounded by thousands of things to do
dere are ig question marks everywhere
Who am I anyway??
Am i doomed or still to go?
i have no inerest to know...
i don't care
i don't give a damn look
at the things that are passing by
i don't wanna look my self in the mirror
i wanna do the things i want
or, i just wanna do nothing.
but sit n gaze at the sky.
i wanna go up there
away from everything else...
this confusion is killing me
i'm bleeding under ur shadow
i'm weeping under ur eyes
And i don't wanna breathe anymore....
I love all the things dat have no rules to them and all the things dat hav no particular or presumed way to do. Though that means i hate almost everything in this world ...but dere still exists a short (really very short) list like hitting someone (or getting hit by someone), yelling at someone or BUNKING classes.
There's no special way of bunking the classes...whether u go straight to the teacher and ask to go out n do some work or reamin out of the class whole day.
I've been bunking classes at school for a cosiderable time now...but im not so much experienced to be called an expert.
here are 5 reasons according to me for getting out of the class before the teacher stages in -
1. It saves u from the boring english lessons, chemistry chapters n the most horrible physics
laws.
2. It saves u from all the irksome noises of teacher shouting and of the 'chalk writing' on
the black board.
3. It makes u get used to the teacher's shrilling voice when she catches u roaming out without
ne reason.
4. It allows u to enter the class from the back, or sneaking in the class when teacher is not
looking frm behind or jumping inside from the window which u may not do in usual cases.
5. It allows u to play guitar in the music room or play basketball or soccer in the ground when
other ur classmates are getting dere heads banged by the teacher and are going green cz' of u.
There's no special way of bunking the classes...whether u go straight to the teacher and ask to go out n do some work or reamin out of the class whole day.
I've been bunking classes at school for a cosiderable time now...but im not so much experienced to be called an expert.
here are 5 reasons according to me for getting out of the class before the teacher stages in -
1. It saves u from the boring english lessons, chemistry chapters n the most horrible physics
laws.
2. It saves u from all the irksome noises of teacher shouting and of the 'chalk writing' on
the black board.
3. It makes u get used to the teacher's shrilling voice when she catches u roaming out without
ne reason.
4. It allows u to enter the class from the back, or sneaking in the class when teacher is not
looking frm behind or jumping inside from the window which u may not do in usual cases.
5. It allows u to play guitar in the music room or play basketball or soccer in the ground when
other ur classmates are getting dere heads banged by the teacher and are going green cz' of u.
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The very fact dat i scored a nice 94.2% in class 10th is troubling me bad...so bad dat i wish to go back in past n live my life da way i've always wanted to.
i have been like in the toppers of the class for past 2 or 3 years. n everyone knows me as a girl who scores big in exams everytime. Even in my family or to include all the maternal and paternal sides, it's like not a news if i get above 90% in my school exams..
and this is da slice of my past dat i hate the most...i never wanted to be a topper....i never wanted to study in the first place...i used to abuse the system of education for da my hate towards my studies...but still i managed to relate what was taught in class to the stupid things around me n studied to get a neat report card at the end of the year.
The problem now is dat i hate studies so much dat i find no meaning in studying what has no use in the real life..altough it was there in my mind for years..its just dat im over with the books so much dat i don't even look at the books now.
this has lead in my "not so good" results n im so proud of it. But i've always had this image of a topper n i can't get over with it...all the ppl say the same thing..."hey aren't u da same who got a 94 in boards?" n i hav da same dumb reply "yea i am".
I hate my past so much for the things i m going thru now...i wish i never had got those marks in 10th..it's like a shame to me.....sob
i have been like in the toppers of the class for past 2 or 3 years. n everyone knows me as a girl who scores big in exams everytime. Even in my family or to include all the maternal and paternal sides, it's like not a news if i get above 90% in my school exams..
and this is da slice of my past dat i hate the most...i never wanted to be a topper....i never wanted to study in the first place...i used to abuse the system of education for da my hate towards my studies...but still i managed to relate what was taught in class to the stupid things around me n studied to get a neat report card at the end of the year.
The problem now is dat i hate studies so much dat i find no meaning in studying what has no use in the real life..altough it was there in my mind for years..its just dat im over with the books so much dat i don't even look at the books now.
this has lead in my "not so good" results n im so proud of it. But i've always had this image of a topper n i can't get over with it...all the ppl say the same thing..."hey aren't u da same who got a 94 in boards?" n i hav da same dumb reply "yea i am".
I hate my past so much for the things i m going thru now...i wish i never had got those marks in 10th..it's like a shame to me.....sob
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