The very fact dat i scored a nice 94.2% in class 10th is troubling me bad...so bad dat i wish to go back in past n live my life da way i've always wanted to.
i have been like in the toppers of the class for past 2 or 3 years. n everyone knows me as a girl who scores big in exams everytime. Even in my family or to include all the maternal and paternal sides, it's like not a news if i get above 90% in my school exams..
and this is da slice of my past dat i hate the most...i never wanted to be a topper....i never wanted to study in the first place...i used to abuse the system of education for da my hate towards my studies...but still i managed to relate what was taught in class to the stupid things around me n studied to get a neat report card at the end of the year.
The problem now is dat i hate studies so much dat i find no meaning in studying what has no use in the real life..altough it was there in my mind for years..its just dat im over with the books so much dat i don't even look at the books now.
this has lead in my "not so good" results n im so proud of it. But i've always had this image of a topper n i can't get over with it...all the ppl say the same thing..."hey aren't u da same who got a 94 in boards?" n i hav da same dumb reply "yea i am".
I hate my past so much for the things i m going thru now...i wish i never had got those marks in 10th..it's like a shame to me.....sob
i have been like in the toppers of the class for past 2 or 3 years. n everyone knows me as a girl who scores big in exams everytime. Even in my family or to include all the maternal and paternal sides, it's like not a news if i get above 90% in my school exams..
and this is da slice of my past dat i hate the most...i never wanted to be a topper....i never wanted to study in the first place...i used to abuse the system of education for da my hate towards my studies...but still i managed to relate what was taught in class to the stupid things around me n studied to get a neat report card at the end of the year.
The problem now is dat i hate studies so much dat i find no meaning in studying what has no use in the real life..altough it was there in my mind for years..its just dat im over with the books so much dat i don't even look at the books now.
this has lead in my "not so good" results n im so proud of it. But i've always had this image of a topper n i can't get over with it...all the ppl say the same thing..."hey aren't u da same who got a 94 in boards?" n i hav da same dumb reply "yea i am".
I hate my past so much for the things i m going thru now...i wish i never had got those marks in 10th..it's like a shame to me.....sob
